Dear Diary,
I have decided I soon want a husband, house, and some babies running around. I am tired of trying to "just get by" and don't want to keep telling myself otherwise. Now, don't get me wrong, Diary. I don't need a husband, house, and babies running around. I'm living life just fine without those things. No...I just want. But here's the thing: wanting something and not seeing any hope of getting it any time soon is just no good. I would like to hope it happens soon. Yesterday, in thinking about weddings, planning with Heather, and watching "The Holiday", I saw little glimmers of hope surface here and there. Sadly, Diary, my hope glimmers got over-shadowed by my reality as soon as I woke up this morning. The trouble is, I don't know what to do about it. In the book The Tale of Despereaux the auther asks, "Reader, do you think it is a terrible thing to hope when there is no reason to hope at all? Or is it something that you might as well do, since, in the end, it really makes no difference to anyone but you?" Diary, I ask you that same question. But I'll take it one step further: Do I have no reason to hope at all? And does it really matter to anyone but me? I wish I could answer those questions with really great responses. I can't. I wish, even more, that you, Diary, could respond to me. You can't. I guess I'll just keep mulling things over, and if I come to a conclusion, I'll let you know.
Thanks for listening, Diary. You're the best! :o)
Love,
Mary<3
Mark 11:24--Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
ReplyDeleteThis is the verse I've been praying everyday. I have it taped to my bathroom mirror. No, it hasn't happened yet, but I believe it will. And I believe God promised this to me. And to you.
Thanks, Kristy. :o) I needed that.
ReplyDeleteI concur with Kristy.
ReplyDeleteAlso- wanting a husband and family is a Godly desire, and you need not be ashamed of it at all!
What church are you at? Are there no young men to be your suitors???